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Well It is confirmed, I am officially pregnant. I FINALLY got confirmation today that there is a baby in there an not just something that makes me throw up a lot. I know it sounds totally stupid, and I knew I am pregnant. But something inside of me really couldn’t except it. I felt like it was maybe a tumor, or all in my head or something. I know it sounds lame, but until I could see it for myself its hard to take the Doctors word on it. Anyways, I had my first appointment with my doctor today, and when she came in and said, “ can you believe you are pregnant?” I said no, and she better show me something today. The stepped out of the room so I could put the gown on for the ultrasound and I looked and Joel and got tears in my eyes because I was so scared that nothing was going to be there. But the second she put the wand on my belly my little babies face popped right up, like he/she was sitting there waiting for the camera. Its was unmistakable. We got to see it's little face so close up, and I think he was smiling at us. Then she started moving like crazy, just swimming around like it was in the pool. We saw every little angle, and the baby even kept opening and clenching his little fist. I was so hoping to see something, but it was way more than I hoped for. I never realized that the baby would be so active and alive already. It wouldn’t hold still for a minute, just like Jordan. Joel and I were both crying, it was unbelievable. Actually, scratch that, I finally for the first time really in my heart and head, believe that I am actually going to have a baby. And we totally fell in love with him/or her. And yes I will be finding out as soon as possible what the actually sex it. I am no good with surprises. This has been a great day. Also I am 12 weeks today, which means I have less than 3% chance that I will miscarry and that I am finally in the safe zone. WOW, what a day. Maybe I can relax a little now.